Regret

Speak when you are angry - and you'll make the best speech you'll ever regret.

Laurence J. Peter

If you aren't in the moment, you are either looking forward to uncertainty or back to pain and regret.

Jim Carrey

Regret is not a proactive feeling. It is situated in disappointment, sorrow, even remorse. It merely wishes things were different without an act to cause a difference. However, repentance is different. Repentance is an admission of, hatred of, and turning away from sin before God.

Monica Johnson

Sometimes regret comes tumbling down over my head, completely unbidden.  It tortures me.  I did and said such stupid things as a parent or I just did nothing when I should have done so much more.  Was I wrong to sell my home and give everything away?  Did I ever have any wisdom?  Those kinds of things can haunt me and so much more.

Today I was sitting on a beach in Spain, reading my bible, talking to Jesus and it hit me......Yahweh has NO REGRETS!  (Except for maybe that he created us??  Genesis 6:6).  He was grieved and hurt that man did not enjoy or love Him but now that He has a BRIDE  He can call His own, I know that His only regret is sadness for the people who do not want Him.  Yahweh relates to every emotion that we have, so it just hit me that He can even relate to my feelings of regret.  But beyond, that initial pain, I do not believe that Yahweh has regret because He is perfect.  He makes perfect decisions and as His every motive is rooted in LOVE, He has no regret.

I realized, that if Kim is dead and her life is hidden in Jesus, then she lives through Yahweh and she too can walk victoriously, without regret.  Philippians 3:8-14 comes to mind.  "Yes, everything is worthless (ALL MY REGRETS) when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.  For his sake, I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ and become one with him". (vs.8) -  "I want to know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised him from the dead.  I want to suffer with him, sharing in his death, so that one way or another I will experience the resurrection from the dead." (vs.10) 

I don't want to think about ME, my junk, my past, I just want to focus on JESUS, right here, right now and commune with him, even if it be in suffering.

"I don't mean to say that I have already achieved these things, (for sure NO!) or that I have already reached perfection.  But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me.  No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing:  FORGETTING THE PAST AND LOOKING FORWARD TO WHAT LIES AHEAD, (that's the key!) I PRESS ON TO REACH THE END OF THE RACE AND RECEIVE THE HEAVENLY PRIZE FOR WHICH GOD, THROUGH JESUS IS CALLING US. (vs.12-14).

My life....DEAD.....hidden in Jesus....looking forward.  I'm so glad that He can handle all my mistakes and failures.  I'm so glad he can take a rotten lump of clay and mold it into something beautiful.  I'm so thankful that He personifies patience towards me.

Looking ahead, looking to HIM.

“Never look back unless you are planning to go that way.” 
― Henry David Thoreau

“We all do things we desperately wish we could undo. Those regrets just become part of who we are, along with everything else. To spend time trying to change that, well, it's like chasing clouds.” 
― Libba Bray

HIS FACE IN THE CLOUDS

Tel Aviv

ToTheStreets International was on our second trip to Israel and this time around we were anxious to hit the streets hard with the gospel.  We knew someone who had freely preached on the streets in Jerusalem and so we knew that it was possible (to preach) despite all the protests from different people.

We arrived in Tel Aviv and planned to stay there for a few days before leaving for Jerusalem where we had booked two rooms in the home of a missionary.  We had met her two years earlier and had been exchanging newsletters from that time on.  I was relaxing on my bed in our hostel when I got an email from her which said,  "Kim, can you find another place to stay?  My current roommates do not feel comfortable with your coming.  I will be gone and they are afraid you will bring trouble through your evangelizing.  Thanks for understanding."  

To say I was shocked is putting it mildly.  I was hurt, puzzled and bewildered.  Before journeying to Israel, I had looked and looked for a place to stay in Jerusalem that was affordable for us.  Finally, I realized that her home was the cheapest for us (even though it too seemed expensive) and I was so thankful when she said we could come.  She knew that we do evangelism and she agreed to our dates and did not express any concern until just before we left Germany.   I responded back right away that we would respect her wishes and be extra sensitive.  She thanked me.  So, to have gotten that email from her just days before we were to leave for Jerusalem with no other place to say seemed just unbelieveable. I could have written back and said, "You made a verbal deal with me" but after prayer, we felt that we should respect her wishes and trust the Lord that He had something better for us.

The next day we took a walk down to the beach and were taken with its beauty.  The water and sand were clean, the sun was shining and the warm air gently wrapped her arms around us.  There was a row of huge, tannish-gold colored rocks on the beach, some of which were cut flat so you could sit on them.  I decided to lay on them, on my back so I could gaze up into the sky yet also turn to see the ocean.  The clouds in the sky were particularly stunning, large and white.  As I gazed up at them, they materialized themselves into the large form of a face - which looked just like the face of Jesus. I saw long hair, a beard, long nose and kind eyes.  While I was gazing at the face, Jesus spoke into my spirit and said, "I want you to enjoy my land while you are here. ENJOY MY LAND."

I turned to Thilo who was sitting next to me and I said, "Thilo, look up into the sky!  The clouds are formed into the face of Jesus."  He looked up and when I turned back to look up, the face was gone. No matter how I searched, I couldn't find the same formation.  I thought, "Oh, the clouds must have moved" but then I noticed that there was not a single breeze and not one of clouds was moving.
Then I knew.  It was truly Jesus.  He had spoken to me by showing me His face in the clouds.

I was still very upset about not having a place to stay in Jerusalem.  It was there that I really wanted to evangelize.  I knew from my previous internet searching that we could not afford the housing in Jerusalem and so we made the decision to go to Tiberias instead.  Yet my heart was unsettled.  "Why, Lord, why?" I was asking.  I knew we would want to explore all the footsteps of Jesus once we were in the Galilee region and that we might not make so much time for evangelizing.  Too often I find it hard to relax.  I want to work and work for my Lord and I worry too much about what our supporters think but He was not worried or wringing His hands wondering why we were not evangelizing.  He knew beforehand.  He understood and He was rejoicing that we had an opportunity to 'enjoy His land',  His beautiful Israel where He will one day return to rule and reign.

The next day we found a hostel in Tiberias and after our arrival, we rented a car and got to see Capernaum, the Jordan River, the Sea of Galilee and the Mt. of Beatitudes.  There were hardly any people where we stayed in Tiberias and it sort of felt like a ghost-town.  We passed out tracts and tried to have conversations with the cafe owners but it was not near my imaginings of what we might have done in Jerusalem.  If my Lord had not spoken to me and told me to "enjoy His land" I may not have not felt such joy in the beautiful flowers that were still blooming (in November) nor felt such peace in allowing myself to be a tourist.

Mt. of Beattitudes

I have to admit, I even failed at having perfect peace.  Now that I'm home and pondering on it all I wonder, why didn't I try and see more?  Why didn't I fully grasp what the Lord was saying to me?  He is so good and kind.  I can still feel the excitement in His voice when He said, "Enjoy my land."  Oh what wrong perceptions I have of Him.  How often I forget that He is living in complete joy and freedom.  How often I don't see His heart that longs to bless and give to me.  I am my own worst task-master.  He simply says, "Anyone who believes in me may come and drink!  For the scriptures declare, 'Rivers of living water will flow from his heart.'" (John 7:389).  All I have to do is look to Him, and allow that living water to flow out of me, whether it be sight-seeing or preaching on the street.  It can happen all the time, even when "enjoying HIS land."

The Sea of Galilee

I Take Pleasure In You

So, when I woke up this morning, I turned my thoughts to Jesus and I heard Him say, “Come away with Me.” Carolina and Dani were sound asleep at the table bed in our RV and Thilo and Bre were still sleeping up in the overhead bed. I got up, got dress, gathered my toilet supplies and walked along the boat pier to the public toilets. It felt wonderful to splash warm water on my face. I thought of the last place where we had camped and the public toilets only had freezing cold water.

Then I went across the street and sat at a picnic table to read my morning devotional. It was so good. It ministered to my heart about suffering. The scripture reference was from Psalm 4:1 “Thou hast enlarged me when I was in distress.” It said that good times bring do not deepen your inner self but suffering brings you closer to your brothers and sisters in the world. “Say not that the shades of the prison-house have fettered you; your fetters are wings – wings of flight into the heart of the universe. God has enlarged you by the binding of sorrow's chain.” George Matheson

As I was sitting and praying with my eyes closed, people passing by would stare at me curiously, so I decided to go for a walk. I walked down the end of a small jetty and sat on a big rock overlooking the Danish sea. It was beautiful. There was a flock of Swift sparrows flying in huge circles around me. I never saw them land and read later in BreAnna's bird book that they can go two years without landing! They sleep and eat while flying. I watched them swoop down to the water and eat the bugs and swoop back up into the air and repeat the pattern. They flew so fast that it was very fun to watch. They were black on top and their underbellies were white. I watched in delight for quite some time when suddenly the still, small voice said to me, “I take pleasure in you. Just like you are enjoying the birds so I enjoy you. I love to watch you eat, play and even sleep.”

I saw myself sitting on that rock, almost a giant compared to the birds. I have no idea what the birds thought of me or if they were even aware of me and I know for sure that they were totally unaware that I was taking pleasure in them. I always think that I have to do for God to take pleasure in me. Even though I have learned that He loves me just as I am, the idea never ceases to amaze me. I think I need to learn the truth a thousand times before it fully sinks in and becomes real to me. A small chink in my armor fell off and once again I was overwhelmed and in awe that the great God, creator of all the universe notices and loves ME!!

After a time, the birds all gathered themselves into a flock and flew way. I couldn't believe that they were ceasing their activity! I guessed that breakfast time was over. I turned to watch where they were flying off to and saw them high up in the sky flying in a huge circle. The sun caught their white underbellies and it seemed to me that they were shimmering.

I got up and started to walk back to our RV. As I walked I pondered on the fact that one of man kind's greatest joys is when someone takes pleasure in us. My son-in-law loves it when I laugh at his jokes. Real joy overwhelms him and that makes me happy too. Then I thought about how we feel if someone delights in us but we don't return their admiration. We can almost feel repulsed by them. We would rather they just go away and leave us alone. If the delight is not reciprocated, we do not enjoy their delight. So it is with the Lord. We need to take delight in Him to receive and enjoy His delight in us. The only way to take delight in the Lord is to get to know Him and for me the biggest way I have come to know Him is through reading about Him in the stories of the bible. When I read the bible, I learn about His faithfulness, justice, righteousness and mercy. I have learned that He is a God who experiences every emotion that we experience like love, jealousy and anger. He created food, beauty and our amazing bodies that can run, swim and enjoy intimate pleasures. We are created in His image and likeness, so we can know that He too loves beauty, activity and intense intimacy.

My Papa, my Lord, my companion enjoys me and I enjoy Him.

The Preacher that Failed

We were invited to preach on the streets with a very accomplished street preacher. I was excited. I felt that the Lord had given me a good little sermon and it would be the first time for me to get back out on the street since my son had gone home to Jesus. I had even prepared a small prop. We gathered in the square and I boldly volunteered to go first. BreAnna was my translator. Somewhere near the beginning of my sermon, everything went wrong. I had a hard time expressing a truth that I thought the Holy Spirit had given me. Then for some unexplainable reason, BreAnna started laughing while she was translating. I felt she was laughing at me. I was embarrassed and it was hard to recoup – for both of us. Someone was filming me and when I saw the video, I was holding my prop (which was a picture) upside down and I only had one earring on! I looked like a crazy person.

No one stopped to listen to me during my sermon and afterwards there was silence. I hung my head in shame and embarrassment. I felt like a complete failure and even more so after BreAnna and our friend preached......two very well-spoken people. They were brilliant and my friend couldn't stop complimenting Bre on her sermon. I felt as though I were sinking down into the mud. I tried to self-talk myself out of it. “Why are you focusing on yourself? You should be happy that the gospel was preached so amazingly by your daughter.” But no matter what I tried to tell myself and no matter how much I tried to pray, I couldn't seem to pull myself out of my funk.

I wondered if I had missed my calling and who was I to think that I could be a street-preacher? I cried that night in bed out of mortification and deep insecurity. I thought I might feel better the next day but I couldn't worship and couldn't hear anything from Jesus. The only thing I could hear was, “Call Charlotte” (not her real name). I called her and she immediately invited me to her house to spend the night. What a friend! We talked and watched a movie together and then I went to bed and cried some more.

The next morning my Father spoke to me. I was reading Acts 18 which says, “Meanwhile, a Jew named Apollos, an eloquent speaker who knew the scriptures well had arrived in Ephesus. He taught with an enthusiastic spirit and with accuracy. He refuted the Jews with powerful arguments in public debate. (Vs. 24-28).

When I read that I started feeling sorry for Paul. Here Apollos gets so much praise and Paul gets stoned and thrown out of cities. Then I remembered that Paul was not known as a good speaker.

“For some say, 'Paul's letters are demanding and forceful but in person he is weak and his speeches are worthless!” II Corinthians 10:19 That's what they were saying about the Apostle Paul! Wonderful, gifted Paul could not speak well.....just like me. I sat in bed with my coffee by my side, shaking my head, “Only you Lord could bring scripture to me that fits my feelings so accurately.”

In that same section of scripture Paul went on to say, “If you want to boast, then boast about the Lord. When people commend themselves it doesn't count for much. The important thing is for the LORD TO COMMEND THEM.” (Vs. 17-18).

The Lord spoke into my spirit, “Kim, I commend you. It doesn't matter what anyone thinks about you because I love you.”

Paul also said, “I may be unskilled as a speaker but I'm not lacking in knowledge.” II Corinthians 11:6. Paul was able to admit his weaknesses but he also knew what he knew: that Jesus Christ is Lord and he saved his soul. It's all about Jesus, not us.

Then Jesus spoke to me from II Corinthians 12:8, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” And again from Paul, “That's why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (vs. 10).

One of Paul's weaknesses was made PUBLIC – 'He can't speak well”.

Down through time Paul is now one of the most revered Apostles. He is exemplified, quoted and preached about. I find that so amazing against the back-drop that he was known as demanding, forceful and weak. Once again, I saw that I cannot measure my worth by the world's eyes but only by what my Father thinks of me. The Holy Spirit eased the sadness off my shoulders. I could relate to Paul and I saw with clarity that we can't all be good speakers or singers or writers or whatever but we can all know Jesus Christ and Him crucified.

Jesus also revealed that satan was attacking me. He was attacking my dreams and visions that are deep in my bosom to preach the gospel to the nations.

At that time period I was having the most wonderful times of morning worship and satan was angry about that as well. So, he brought a full onslaught attack of my person, gifts and callings. Oh how I thank the Lord for HIS VOICE that brought me out of my sadness and insecurity. What a Father we serve!

The next time I got up to preach, it was hard but I knew that deep down, my bosom was screaming, “If no one will tell them, how will they know?” So I preached from my heart and decided that it did not matter if I was eloquent or not. I knew I was sincere, that my motives were pure and I felt Jesus applauding from His throne.

'Call Me Dad'

Over time and without realizing it, I began to view God in a distorted fashion. I think it intensified after reading the account of Moses where, to my mind, God seemed utterly powerful and somewhat distant to man. I started envisioning him as a sort of Wizard of Oz with fire, anger and bellowing. I saw him as a bright force but not as a person.

The other day, while on my morning walk, I said, “Good morning, God” - envisioning Him as a huge furnace of fire; then, “Good morning Jesus” - seeing Him with all his love and laughter; and lastly, “Good morning Holy Spirit” - seeing Him as my guide and counselor.

Suddenly and unmistakably God said to me, “Call me Dad.”

I almost froze in my steps. He said, “From now on, don't call me 'God', call me 'Dad'. I am your loving Daddy.”

Tears filled my eyes when I realized how wrong I had been viewing my wonderful Dad. I was overwhelmed at the feelings of love that were vibrating all around me that I almost could not breathe. I realized, in a matter of seconds that I had still been looking to my earthly dad to meet my needs and take care of me (even though he is no longer able to do so) and that the picture of my heavenly Dad had been wrong.

In the last couple of years it seems like it has become popular for Christians to call God 'Daddy' or 'Papa'. I too joined in the chorus but it never felt right and always seemed a little fake to me. I have had times of inner-healing in my life where the Lord revealed his Father-hood to me and healed inner wounds but when He said, “Call me Dad” something inside permanently shifted. I realized that 'Dad” is the word I used to call my earthly father and that the Lord was saying clearly to me, “I want you to view me as your Dad, your own true Dad”.

After that morning we had a time of worship in Christiania and during worship He revealed himself to me in a vivid picture in my mind's eye. He was not a huge furnace of fire but He was a man who was laughing, stomping and dancing. I saw him in a place like a jungle and there was a lion next to him. He was roaring and laughing over our praise. I then saw some zebras and other wild animals next to Him but His strength and superiority over them was unmistakable. He was so strong and mighty but much more real and personal than a furnace of fire. I knew that He wanted to show me who He was and destroy the crazy image I had built up in my mind. Once again, I was overwhelmed and tears came to my eyes.

Now I not only see Jesus as Savior, my beautiful one, my joy and delight; nor do I only see the Holy Spirit as my guide, counselor, friend and comforter but now I have a correct 3-fold picture of the three-in-One. Mighty, everlasting 'God' is my Dad. He is a Dad who is strong and can stand among wild animals and roar; a Dad whose laughter shakes the earth; a Dad who loves his daughter and wants to care for her every need; and a dad who gives her gifts and surprises. He is a person with incredibly strong arms who longs to take care of me.

I don't know why it took so long for me to get this revelation of God. Perhaps it is because I am so aware of my earthly dad's frailty and that his time on earth is short. Perhaps it took years and years to see correct manifestations of Jesus and the Holy Spirit that I was finally ready for a more accurate image of the Father. I don't know all the reason's but I am so thankful that the God of all the universe saw me, spoke to me and revealed His great love for me. Now when I sing songs that have the word 'God' in them, I can't sing them that way. I have to replace 'God' with 'Dad' and I think everyone should do that, using the name of Father that is most comfortable. It helped to change everything for me. With every passing year, He wants us to know and love Him deeper.   

IN THAT DAY

I have always loved the verses in the Old Testament – especially in Isaiah that start with, 'In that day....'. I believe 'in that day' refers to the time when Jesus will return to earth to rule and reign. I made a list of some of the exciting things that will happen 'in that day' and I believe it is coming soon.  It will be glorious.

1. Jerusalem will be known as the 'Throne of the Lord'. All nations will go to Jerusalem and honor King Jesus. Jeremiah 3:17
2. Jews will return to Israel from all the places where they were scattered. Jeremiah 3:18
3. Jesus will be the God of all the families of Israel. Jeremiah 31:1
4. Jesus will be beautiful and glorious; the fruit of the land will be the pride and glory of all who survive in Israel. Isaiah 4:2
5. Lambs will find good pasture and fattened sheep and young goats will feed among the ruins. Isaiah 5:17
6. The Israeli survivor's will faithfully TRUST the Lord. Isaiah 10:20
7. The yoke of slavery and bondage will be broken. Isaiah 10:27
8. The wolf and lamb will lie down together; the leopard will lie down with the baby goats. The calf and the yearling will be safe with the lion and a child will lead them. Isaiah 11:6
9. Jesus will be a banner of salvation to all the world. The nations will rally to Him and Jerusalem will be glorious! Isaiah 11:10
10. The Lord will bring home his scattered people. Isaiah 11:11
11. We the redeemed will sing and shout praises. We will drink deeply from the fountain of salvation. Isaiah 12:1-5
12. The Lord will give His people rest from sorrow; fear; slavery; and chains. Isaiah 14:3
13. The Egyptians will be as weak as women. Isaiah 19:16
14. Five Egyptian cities will follow Yeshua and begin to speak Hebrew. Isaiah 19:18
15. There will be an altar to the Lord in Egypt and a monument to Yeshua at its border. Isaiah 19:19
16. Egypt and Assyria (Syria) will be connected by a highway and both countries will worship the Lord. Isaiah 19:23
17. The demons and proud rulers on earth will be punished and thrown into prison. Isaiah 24:21-22
18. The glory of the moon will wane and the brightness of the sun will fade. Isaiah 24:23
19. The Lord of Heaven's Armies will rule on Mount Zion. He will rule in great glory in Jerusalem in the sight of all the leaders of His people. Isaiah 24:23b
20. Everyone in the land of Judah will sing this song: Our city is strong! We are surrounded by the walls of God's salvation. Open the gates to all who are righteous; allow the faithful to enter. Isaiah 26:1-2
21. The Lord will take His terrible, swift sword and punish Leviathan, the swiftly moving serpent, the coiling, writhing serpent. God will kill the dragon of the sea. Isaiah 27:1
22. The great trumpet will sound and exiles will return to Jerusalem. Isaiah 27:13
23. The deaf will hear and the blind will see. Isaiah 29:18
24. Streams of water will flow from every mountain and stream. Isaiah 30:25
25. Ungodly fools will NOT be heroes; scoundrels will NOT be respected. Isaiah 32:5
26. Jesus will be our salvation and give wisdom and knowledge. Isaiah 33:6
27. No weapon formed against us will prosper. Isaiah 54:17
28. There will be no more need of sun or moon for Jehovah will the the Light! Isaiah 60:19
29. No one will be hurt or destroyed on His holy mountain. Isaiah 65:25
30. Jerusalem will become an immovable rock. Zechariah 12:3
31. War horses will panic but the Jews will find strength in the Lord. Judah will be like a fire that burns up all her enemies and Jerusalem will remain secure. Zechariah 12:4-6
32. The Lord will defend the people of Jerusalem and the weakest person will be as mighty as King David! All nations that come against Jerusalem will be destroyed. Zechariah 12:8-9
33. Sources of light will no longer shine, yet there will be continuous day. Zechariah 13:16
34. Life-giving waters will flow out from Jerusalem, half toward the Dead Sea and half toward the Mediterranean and the water will flow continuously. Zechariah 13:8
35. There will be ONE LORD and His name alone will be worshipped. Zechariah 13:9

SING A NEW SONG

A new song is sung all the time

At every moment and second it chimes

Hosanna!  Hosanna! the waves ring

A mighty cheer to Jesus they bring

Never a dull moment in heaven above

Like worker bees His children blaze with love

Creating, enjoying, exploring and doing His work

All to His glory; all to His praise

Loud songs of triumph they raise

Preparing for the time that He will ascend

Back down to earth to reign supreme

From Jerusalem He will be the whole world's KING

Thousands will hold His train when He comes down

All will serve Him making a joyful sound

"Family" - He calls us, "Dear brothers, sisters and kids

You are in Me and I in you."

Hasten the day!

Prepare your hearts

The King is coming and He'll never depart

God wants to be close to us.

In Numbers 28 the Lord requires of the Israelites a daily offering of two 1-year old lambs, (one in the morning and one in the evening) along with two quarts of flour mixed with 1 quart of pure olive oil, 1 quart of wine which had to be poured out with each lamb.

The Lord also required monthly sacrifices which were: two young bulls; 1 ram; seven 1-year old male lambs; 18 quarts of flour; 12 quarts of wine (dispersed with each animal) and 1 male goat.

As I was reading this, I was reminded of a book I read a couple of years ago called, The Devil's Cauldron.  It is the true story of a man who was heavily involved in witchcraft and whenever he did incantations or needed power, the demons would call for dark rum.  Sometimes he sprayed rum on the walls or spilled it out on the floor and threw a burning match on it but rum was always involved when great power was needed.

Maybe, demons were speaking to me as I was reading Numbers 28 but I said, "Lord all those sacrifices and the spilled out wine and oil sounds just like witchcraft!  I understand the animals and that there needed to be blood to atone for sin but I don't understand the flour and wine."

Right now, as I am writing this, I am realizing that it is not the Lord's ways that sound like witchcraft.....it is witchcraft copying and mocking what the Father had in mind from the very beginning.  But I digress....back to my story.

More often than not, when I ask the Lord an honest question from my heart, He ANSWERS and He came to me once again with His heart.  He told me that all of His motivation is dealing with humans is RELATIONSHIP.  He called for the blood sacrifices (as I knew) to atone for sin but He wanted to meet with His people, the Israelites every morning and evening.  He wanted them to acknowledge and come to Him.   Food was precious to the Israelites and as they gave it back to Him, He promised to pour back on them in abundance.

The offerings symbolized a MEAL and God the Father of the universe sat and ate with them!  He was (and is) always yearning for relationship.  It was as if He was saying, "In the morning come and eat with me and in the evening, come and eat with me."  Most people have meat, starch and wine with their meal and the sacrifices were the symbols of a meal.  First the blood is spilled to bring us into right relationship with God and then we can sit down with Him and have fellowship.

"Come now, and let us reason together," says the LORD, "Though your sins are as scarlet, They will be as white as snow; Though they are red like crimson, They will be like wool." Isaiah 1:18 Amazing that our God, the God who created the heavens and the earth invites us to "reason" with Him.

Following those exciting thoughts, the Holy Spirit brought to my mind what New Testament offerings are:
"We have an altar from which the priests in the Tabernacle have no right to eat. Under the old system, the high priest brought the blood of animals into the Holy Place as a sacrifice for sin, and the bodies of the animals were burned outside the camp. So also Jesus suffered and died outside the city gates to make His people holy by means of His own blood. So let us go out to Him, outside the camp and bear the disgrace He bore. For this world is not our permanent home; we are looking forward to a home yet to come, Therefore, let us offer through Jesus a CONTINUAL sacrifice of praise to God, proclaiming our allegiance to His name. And don't forget to do good and to share with those in need. These are the sacrifices that please God."               Hebrews 13: 10-16

Jehovah wants a CONTINUAL sacrifice of praise, not just morning and evening. Right now, I have a whole lot of fear about money (my lack of it) and I have been finding it hard to praise Him. Yet in reading the verses from Hebrews, I can see how my sacrifice of praise literally proclaims my allegiance to Jesus even in dark times, even when everything is not going my way and doesn't that bring Him even more glory?

So, He still wants or requires sacrifice today and just as in the Old Testament, it is still all about relationship. My fear keeps me from praising Him but when I praise Him despite my fear, I am drawn into His presence, right where He wants me to be. He wants me. He desires my heart. He wants me to be near to Him. Our God has such big arms and all He wants is to enfold us in them.