Friday, January 26, 2018


“Then Moses, Aaron, Nadab, Abihu and the seventy elders of Israel climbed up the mountain. There they saw the God of Israel. Under His feet there seemed to be a surface of brilliant blue lapis lazuli, as clear as the sky itself. And though these nobles of Israel gazed upon God, He did not destroy them. In fact, they ate a covenant meal, eating and drinking in His presence!” Exodus 23: 9-11

Every time I read those verses, I am overcome. God, coming down from heaven to man and revealing His glory and power. “Lord, I want to see you,” and I don't believe He is hiding. Soon, the whole earth will SEE Him, when He returns. “Look! He comes with the clouds of heaven. And everyone will see Him - even those who pierced him. And all the nations of the world will mourn for Him. Yes! Amen.” Revelation 1:7

Isaiah saw Him in the temple. “It was in the year King Uzziah died that I saw the Lord. He was sitting on a lofty throne, and the train of his robe filled the temple.” Isaiah 6:1

Paul saw him on the road to Damascus. “As he was approaching Damascus on this mission, a light from heaven suddenly shone down around him. He fell to the ground and heard a voice saying to him, 'Saul! Saul! Why are you persecuting me?'
'Who are you Lord?' Saul asked.
And the voice replied, 'I am Jesus, the one you are persecuting!” Acts 9:3-5
“Then Barnabas brought him to the Apostles and told them how Saul had seen the Lord on the way to Damascus...” Acts 9:27

Yahweh is revealing Himself to many all over the world. Muslims are seeing Jesus in dreams and converting to Christianity in record numbers.

I myself saw Him when I was in Jerusalem. I was in a church service worshipping when I saw Him. I saw brilliant blue stone water surrounding him and I saw His eyes. They were blue and shinning with joy and confidence. With one look into His eyes, I saw that He was not worried about anything. He was not fretting about the affairs of the world or what various nations were threatening. At that time, I was worried about money – the lack of it but when I saw His eyes, I knew I could laugh at tomorrow because He was so unconcerned about any attack from the enemy.

After the 70 elders of Israel, along with Moses, Aaron and his sons, had the encounter with Yahweh, Moses was called to go further up and further in to the Lord's presence. The rest were to remain and wait for Moses to return. Moses was on the mountain forty days and forty nights.
Jesus too was led away from people and into the wilderness for forty days and forty nights. Is there a correlation here? Did Jesus go to the same spot where Moses saw the Lord?

When we enter into the presence of the Lord, satan will often throw his fiercest, fiery arrows at us. Satan knew who Jesus was and he threw everything he could at Jesus in order to thwart him from His mission of becoming our sacrificial Lamb.

When Moses came down from the mountain, it appeared that all was lost! The people, after just agreeing to serve the Lord and Him only and to make no graven images – had not only forsaken the Lord but made a graven image.

We are in a battle with satan till the day we die and go home to heaven. If he knows that he can't make us turn away from Jesus, he will then make our lives as miserable as possible on this earth because he hates Jesus and he hates us.

I'm so glad the Lord told us the end of the story! Satan will be bound. He will be thrown into a pit and although he now has freedom on this earth to operate, he is still conquered. There is no contest.
Let us press on to see the Lord and walk in His glory. Moses said to God in Exodus 33:15-18, “If you don't personally go with us don't make us leave this place. How will anyone know that you look favorably on me – on me and on your people – if you don't go with us: For your presence among us sets your people apart from all other people on the earth.”

“Then the Lord responded, “I will indeed do what you have asked, for I look favorably on you and I know you by name.”

Moses responded, “Then show me your glorious presence.”

Seek His glorious presence each day. Spend time with Him in a quiet place. He is our Lord, counselor, teacher and Captain. He wants you to see Him as He is.

Monday, January 8, 2018

Moses was a troubled, insecure man.

Throughout the 80's the United States, was engulfed in promoting and understanding self-esteem. I rode that wave along with everyone else. I read books, learned to love myself and used self-love techniques in my lay-counselling ministry. Much of what I learned was good and I still use some of the information today, yet I now believe that overall, I had the wrong focus.

If you look deeply and use your imagination, you can see that Moses was a man plagued with self-esteem issues. Most everyone knows that Moses was put in a basket on the water to save his life from the Egyptian edict that all male babies were to be killed by the mid-wives. An Egyptian princess found Moses and returned him to his mother to be nursed just until he was weaned. Then he was abruptly taken away from the mother who loved and nursed him to the court of Pharaoh where he was most likely loved by his adopted mother but also likely to have been raised by servants. Can you imagine the confusion that must have gone through his little heart? The bewilderment? I imagine that later in life, Moses may have been taunted by cousins or half brothers and sisters when it was learned that he wasn't really Egyptian but a despised Jew. He also may have harbored guilt feelings that he led a life of privilege while his natural family were slaves. What torment there may have been in his young heart?  

Then, when he came of age, he was desperate to go visit his natural family and was shocked at the harshness of the Egyptians towards his own people. Possibly as a way to show the Jews he was one of them, he killed an Egyptian slave-driver. His heart may have been trying to say, “I'm one of you! I feel for your pain!” Yet, the tides turned on him. Now Pharaoh hated him and the Jews hated him. Rather than taking kindly to that act the Jews said, “Are you going to kill us like you killed that Egyptian?” He had no choice but to flee away from the nightmare that was his life. Moses also apparently had a stuttering or talking problem (Exodus 4:10) which is often associated with trauma or low self-esteem. He must have had huge identity issues, “Am I the son of a King or the son of peasant shepherds?”


He found temporary relief in the wilderness. A sweet father-in-law, a wife to love and even a job to do – tending sheep. Then after a time, Moses met God in the burning bush and when he saw God he “covered his face because he was afraid to look at God.” (Exodus 3:6b).

Then the Lord answered the disappointment that I believe had been burning in Moses's heart. “What kind of God would allow His first-born to become slaves? Doesn't He care about the harsh treatment they are living under?"

The Lord said to Moses, “I have certainly seen the oppression of my people in Egypt,” and “Yes, I am aware of their suffering.” Exodus 3:7

Isn't that a question we all ask? “Are you aware of me God? Don't you notice my suffering? Don't you care?”

With one look at God and with one word from God, Moses saw His love, concern and eternal goodness. Moses walked closer to God than almost any other man in the bible. He saw God.

When God told him, “Now go, for I am sending you to Pharaoh. You must lead my people Israel out of Egypt,” Moses protested and said, “Who am I to appear before Pharaoh? Who am I to lead the people of Israel out of Egypt?” Moses had already felt defeated by life. He had no more identity in Egypt because he was hated by the Jews and Pharaoh alike. He was a man who had no idea who he was. And how does the Lord respond to that question?

“I WILL BE WITH YOU. And you will worship Me with the Israelites on this mountain.” Period. That is all the response that God gave to Moses' insecurity.

God did not take time to build up Moses's self-esteem. He did not say, “You are an amazing man! You know I had you raised in the court of Pharaoh so you could learn things that your Hebrew family doesn't even know. You are handsome and of value!” No. God said in essence, “Look at Me. I'm all you need. I am your security, I am your identity because I AM WITH YOU.”

I was really struck by that.  It is also something that John Piper has spent a life-time teaching.

He had this to say about self-esteem: “I’m not on a mission to help you feel good about yourselves. I am on a mission to help you feel so good about the greatness of God that you forget about yourselves and live a life of love, making others glad in God. I’m going to say that again because in our twenty-first-century mold and time on the back-end of the crest of the wave of self-esteem, it needs to still be said. I am not here to make you feel good about yourself. That’s a low salvation. That’s a low-level, American gospel message. I am here to make you so happy in God — to help you feel so good about the glory, majesty, beauty, justice, love, truth, and power of God — so that in all that, you forget about yourself. Some of you have heard me say, “Nobody goes to the Grand Canyon to increase his self-esteem.” Because on the edge of the Grand Canyon, as you feel your soul being drawn out into this vast opening, that’s not what happens. What happens is wonder and awe, which is what you were made for. Heaven will not be a hall of mirrors in which you like what you see. In fact, I just have this suspicion there won’t be any mirrors in heaven because anything good and beautiful about you will be radiated back to you from the other people that you’re loving so much it just bounces back to you. But mainly it’s going to be about Jesus everywhere satisfying your soul.”    John Piper

I was touched and lifted by the Lord's response to Moses question of, "Who am I?" I want to spend more of my time gazing at the great I AM.  I know I spend way too much time looking at myself. Jonathan David Helser has a great song that I believe can minister to everyone, I've Seen I Am.  "I've seen I AM, now I know that I am loved.  I've seen I Am, now I know who I am."  Brilliant!  That says it all.

Friday, December 29, 2017

Abraham's Greatest Sacrifice

"Nothing that you have not given away will ever be really yours. Nothing in you that has not died will ever be raised from the dead. Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin, and decay. But look for Christ and you will find Him, and with Him everything else thrown in.” 
                                                                                CS Lewis

Some time later, God tested Abraham's faith. 'Abraham'! God called.

'Yes,' He replied. 'Here I am.'

'Take your son, your only son.....'

I have to believe that God spoke to Abraham in an audible voice because I can't even begin to imagine that he could obey that command based only upon an inner voice. If the voice was not audible, how could he move forward without doubt and wondering if it was his own thoughts or satan masquerading as God? I may be wrong and I have no idea how the Lord spoke to Abraham but however it was, it must have been unmistakeable.

I imagine Abraham asking, “Do you mean Isaac?” since he had two sons.

Yes, Isaac whom you love so much. Go to the land of Moriah. Go and sacrifice him as a burnt offering on one of the mountains, which I will show you.” Genesis 22:1-3

THE NEXT MORNING Abraham got up and traveled to Moriah to sacrifice his son.

As I read those verses again, which are always hard to read, I was struck by the fact that Abraham obeyed that command immediately. If the Lord had asked me to sacrifice one of my kids, even if He spoke audibly, it would have taken me weeks, no months to bring myself to obedience – and if at all.

I remember when the Lord called me to forsake everything I owned in the United States and move to the mission field. He hadn't yet told me when to go, He had just planted within me the desire to go and told me to “Wait.” As I waited, I would look around my living room, which I loved and had decorated precisely to my taste. I would look at a beloved piece of furniture or an object that had personal meaning and think, “Can I really give that up?” I would struggle with my emotions until I could say, “Yes, Lord, I'll give that up.” It took about a year for my heart to say, “Lord, I give it all to you, all my possessions, my home, my friends and my life in the United States,” A year!

As I pondered Abraham's heart response further I decided, “Lord, I couldn't do it. I just could not kill and sacrifice one of my children to you!”

His voice lovingly responded to me and He said, “Child, you already did!” He took me back, many years ago to a church service in Portland, Oregon. At that time, my son was hooked on drugs and had recently left a treatment center. He came to church with a friend and suddenly left the service, taking (stealing) the friends car to go buy drugs. The friend was worried and we both wondered if my son would even return with the car. My heart pounded in pain. I was so weary of praying for him. I loved him so much but I saw over and over again that he rejected the Lord and chose his own sin. Suddenly in that church service, the Lord challenged my heart, “If Gabe never surrender's his life to Me and he ends up in hell, will you still love and trust Me?”

Ouch. That hurt. I had believed from the first time that Gabe took his first puff of marijuana that my mother's prayers would rescue him and bring salvation to his soul. I also believed (and still believe) in the value and truth that the Lord gave our souls the freedom to accept or reject Him. He will never force someone's free will and in the end, it was Gabe who had to decide if he wanted to bow his stubborn will to God.

I cried. I thought of my dear son in hell. I pondered if that would affect my faith or not and I struggled. I couldn't even begin to imagine heaven without my son. In the end, after much struggle, (I don't think I even heard the sermon) I said to the Lord, “If my son truly rejects you and if he wants no part of You and if You have to cast him into hell because of his own decision, I will still choose to love You.”

It felt like the hardest prayer I had ever prayed in my life. I don't recall feeling peace but I did feel freedom. I also felt the Father's smile and embrace. From that time on, even though I continued to pray for my son, I was not so desperate as if his very salvation hung on my prayers. I had settled the deal with my Lord and that's what the Father reminded me of when I had told him that I couldn't give up my children to Him. I had already done so.

I realised that the Lord asks the same question from every parent, “Are you willing to live an eternity with Me in heaven apart from your children? Will you love Me more than these?”

My son finally surrendered his life to the Lord a couple of years later at his second stint in a Teen Challenge center in Spokane, Washington. He never completely conquered his addiction to drugs and alcohol, even though he would go long periods without drugs. Yet, my daughter and I saw the fruit of the Holy Spirit in his life. He became a lover of men. He was humble and broken and He found the joy of the Lord. We saw him change from a selfish man to one who gave and one who freely told others about Jesus sacrifice on the cross. Yet, in his weakness and insecurity he eventually died from an overdose, on another one of his relapses.

Once again, I said, “Yes,” to the Lord when He took my son. I don't know why my son was never completely delivered from drugs and alcohol when there are so many testimonies of people being freed instantly. Yet, I do believe that he was saved and washed in the blood of the Lamb.

The words to an old hymn come to mind, “Is your all on the altar of sacrifice laid? Your heart does the Spirit control? You can only be blest, and have peace and sweet rest, as you yield Him your body and soul.”

God's kingdom is definitely an upside down kingdom. It feels as if we will die if we sacrifice our kids – yet we will live! If seems as though only an evil God would ask us to give even our children – yet He is the only true love in the universe. To live – we must die. In death, we find life. In sacrifice, we find Jesus, the greatest gift of all.

Sunday, November 12, 2017

What would Jesus have to say about the Sutherland Springs Massacre?

I was just as horrified and saddened as everyone else when I heard of the Sutherland Springs Massacre. I cried when I saw the Pastor's tears and heard some of the stories. My heart aches for the church and the whole community.

This morning when I was having my time with Jesus, I read something in the book of Luke that made me sit up. I've read the book of Luke so many times but hadn't ever really paid attention to those particular verses until today. They prompted me to write this blog, something I haven't done in a long time.

The verses are from Luke 13 starting with verse one, “About this time, Jesus was informed that Pilate murdered some people from Galilee as they were offering sacrifices at the temple.” Luke 13:1

“Hey Jesus! What do you think about that? Tell us your opinion!”
I can only imagine how stirred up the people were and asking themselves many questions. They must have concluded that the worshipers were murdered because they were sinners because they asked Jesus, “Do you think those Galileans were worse sinners than all the other people from Galilee?”

Jesus answered, “Is that why they suffered? Not at all!”

We all want to know the whys. Knowing the reason for things makes us feel safe, more insular. Maybe if they were horrible sinners and we are good, the same fate won't happen to us. Murder, any kind of murder makes no sense. It rocks our world and gives rise to feelings of fear. Suddenly shadows swirl around our little corner of the world, threatening an unknown force of evil.

Jesus says something very startling. I think if someone said this today, especially right at the time of a tragedy, people would be horrified. I am even thinking that by my writing His words in a blog I will be accused of being insensitive. Jesus did not start weeping. He didn't even sympathize with the crowd. He simply said, “And you will perish too unless you repent of your sins and turn to God. And what about the eighteen people who died when the tower in Siloam fell on them? Were they the worst sinners in Jerusalem? No, and I tell you again, that unless you repent, you will perish too.”

Jesus took them to an event that was accidental – the tower in Siloam falling. He wanted them to see that death can occur at any time, by an accident, natural causes or by evil people. Death has nothing to do with how good or bad we are. His perspective was,“You will die someday. Quit trying to figure out the whys and the wherefores but look to your own soul. You could die any minute. Are you ready? How is your soul?”

Assuming that Luke's gospel was in chronological order, which I think it was because Luke was a doctor and you can tell by the way he wrote the book that he was very serious about getting details just right. So in chapter twelve, just before thirteen, Jesus talks about death. I wonder if He already knew about Pilate and the murders. (He was God in human flesh and knew everything, even events that hadn't yet happened).Was Jesus trying to prepare them beforehand? Luke records that thousands were milling around Jesus and Jesus said to that crowd, “Dear friends, don't be afraid of those who want to kill your body; they cannot do anymore to you after that. But I'll tell you whom to fear. Fear God who has the power to kill you and then throw you into hell. Yes, He's the one to fear.” Luke 12:4-5

Jesus came to earth to save our souls. Period. He didn't come to make life on earth a paradise. His one mission was to die to take our punishment, so that we could live with Him eternally. He made every effort to speak truth to the crowds. It is truly wonderful and amazing that we have His recorded words still preserved 2000 years later! I get very bothered when I sense that Christians have lost sight of heaven. Heaven is what its all about We will all die and then we will live eternally, either in heaven or hell.

Gun control is not the answer. Making stricter laws might help but there will still be evil people doing evil things. Evil will be with us until Jesus returns to earth and sets up His kingdom. Nothing we do will eradicate evil because satan is alive and well, along with his demons and humans who follow him.

Lets be like Jesus and keep our minds focused on eternity. Eternity is what matters. The wonderful thing about the murder of the people in Sutherland is that they all appear to have been true born-again children of God and so they are all in heaven. They were simply translated, in the blink of an eye into heaven! They were mostly likely greeted by relatives and friends who had gone on before. Jesus hugged them and welcomed them into His Kingdom. It must be hard for residents in heaven to know how much they are missed on earth. That is the hard part for all of us. We all at, one time or another, feel the ache of someone missing from our lives because they have passed from this earth. That is the consequence of love. Grief only shows that we have loved and so there is nothing sinful or wrong with a heart that aches for a loved one who has been translated from this earth to heaven.

Don't fear Isis. Don't fear natural disasters. Don't fear crazed gunman. Fear God.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Homosexuality is a Sin!

They traded the truth about God for a lie. So they worshiped and served the things God created instead of the Creator himself, who is worthy of eternal praise! Amen.That is why God abandoned them to their shameful desires. Even the women turned against the natural way to have sex and instead indulged in sex with each other. And the men, instead of having normal sexual relations with women, burned with lust for each other. Men did shameful things with other men, and as a result of this sin, they suffered within themselves the penalty they deserved. Romans 1:25-27

I'm not afraid to say that homosexuality is a sin.

Adultery is sin.
Stealing is sin.
Lying is sin.
Killing is sin.
Worshiping anything other than God is sin.

Definition of sin: Breaking God's laws; snubbing our nose at God and rebelling against Him.

Sin brings bondage. It's pleasures are temporary. God did not create certain desires that give us pleasure and then tell us not to do them. He is not the creator of sin. Satan devised sin as a way to capture, ensnare, and turn us away from the truth and the life and the way to live that brings freedom.

Witchcraft and satanism are alive and well in the Christian churches. Satan's scheme is to twist and distort truth and what better way than to infiltrate the Christian church. He loves to make Christians look like hypocrites; money-grubbing fools; and narrow hate-filled mongers. If satan can distort the true bride of Christ, he gains ground in keeping people away from salvation. Why not plant homosexual's in the church and have them broadcast far and wide, “God did not say you cannot sleep with a member of the same sex. God would not say that. He is a god of love. Go on, eat the apple.”

The true bride of Christ cannot be deceived or manipulated. The true bride of Christ understands holiness. The true bride of Christ loves the law.

Yet sadly, many who call themselves Christians are being deceived and manipulated.

One of the greatest forms of manipulation that is used by our enemy towards Christians is to plant the thought, “You are not showing love.”

Oh how weak we Christians are! Because we don't know we are completely and forever loved by Christ, in our depths of depravity we long to be loved and perceived in a positive light and so we panic. “I'm not showing love! Oh no! What will they think of me? After all, Christ showed love to the woman caught in adultery by not casting a stone.”

I believe that Jesus wrote in the sand the sins of the Pharisee's and exposed THEIR sins. The woman was willing to agree with Jesus that adultery is sin. We know this because Jesus said, “Go your way and SIN NO MORE.” He didn't say, “I know you've been abused and you were just committing adultery because of your past. I understand.” Nor did He say, “Come on Pharisee's, you are sinners too. Let's just love one another and all get along.” No, I believe He PUBLICLY exposed their sins which brought so much humiliation and shame that they had to walk away. It was a brutal thing for Jesus to do and it most likely caused them to hate him all the more for exposing their sin. Sin no more. Sin no more......sin no more.... it reverberates down through time. SIN NO MORE.

Due to satan's lies and our own false sense of guilt, many become bleeding heart's towards the homosexual community with attitudes such as, “Those poor gay people. They've been so hated and persecuted, I better make up for all the Christians in the world who have hated them and show them that at least I love and understand them.”  Of course, we need to love people who practice homosexuality, just as we need to love murderers, liars and adulterers but that doesn't mean that we have to be evasive or pretend that we think their sin is okay.  Love speaks up.  Love tells the truth.

One thing the Lord asks of us is that we agree with Him that sin is sin, yet the homosexual community refuses to do this. Most adulterers agree that adultery is sin; most liar's will say, “Yes, I shouldn't lie,” and thieves, though they may justify their thievery, will agree it is wrong to steal.

Telling a homosexual that their behavior is sin is NOT AN ACT OF HATE. It is an act of love. A love that longs to turn them around from the path that leads to destruction and put them on a path that leads to life.

On the converse, keeping QUIET is a sin. Do you not love enough to tell someone when they are going to fall off a cliff or that their house is on fire and they better get out quick? Love rescues. Love tells the truth. Love risks being hated and slandered. Love risks being misunderstood. Love wants the highest good for a person and not just temporal pleasure and happiness.

So, I shout it from the roof-tops: “YOU ARE BEING LIED TO! HOMOSEXUALTIY IS A SIN, A TRAP, AND A SNARE THAT IS HARD TO BREAK ONCE YOU ENTER!” God's word clearly states that homosexuality is a sin. The words have not been twisted. We all must turn from sin and agree with God that sin is sin. We must hate the things that God hates and love the things that God loves.

Why does God hate sin? Because he knows it will enslave and entrap. It's that simple. He loved us enough to write down FREEDOM on two stone tablets and forever give them to the world. That's what the 10 commandment's are: steps to freedom. Yet satan has twisted the commandments and lied to us and whispered to us in his slimy voice that it is an evil god who would try and tell us what to do and that we can't have happiness if we follow HIS way.

Life isn't a test that says, “Can you avoid sin and come to heaven?” It's not about that. It's about embracing HIM who is life and freedom and love.

Satan is a liar.

Come on Christians. You have been manipulated by the master of all lies. Quit kowtowing to the homosexual agenda! Quit worrying that you will be perceived as a hate-filled monger! If someone is addicted to drugs, do you say to that person, “I'm so glad it makes you feel good. Here's some money to buy more.” NO! You try and rescue them. It is the same with homosexuals. By your keeping quiet, you are keeping them enslaved and trapped into lies. Loving is telling the truth.

Thursday, May 5, 2016

I'm a Princess now!

The difference between the impossible and the possible lies in a person's determination.”  Tommy Lasorda
If the dream is big enough, the facts don't count.

Live your life.....make your dream come true.” Asimakis

Cherish your visions and your dreams, as they are the children of your soul and the blueprints of your ultimate achievements.”
Napoleon hill

I don't remember anybody telling me those things when I was young. Today, those ideas are common-place and taught widely in the schools, but I don't remember being told to dream big or that I can do whatever I want as long as I believe in myself.

Would I have turned out differently, if someone had told me; if I was allowed to dream beyond being a wife and mother?

The only career-dream I can remember having was wanting to be a social-worker. That was because I read some books about a social worker helping foster children. But no one encouraged me in that dream and today I would not want to be a social-worker. I know that I could not co-labor with a society that believes in relativism. Yet, sometimes when I read quotes on dreams, I wonder why I never had strong aspirations to be a “success.” Do or did I have a weak mind? Did I miss out? Was there more that I could have aspired to?

At the bottom of my heart, when I go deep, I realize that my only aspiration in this life is to be His princess. Period.

That's really all I've ever wanted. And the dream has been fulfilled. I am His Princess! Day in and Day out, 24-7, forever and eternity.

I met the King when I was very young. I remember whispering to Him in my bed at night, telling Him, “I am yours.” When I was 9 I made a public declaration and was immersed in water at my church. At 13, I made another public declaration and soon after was filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke in tongues. But I didn't know I was or had become His princess until later in life.

At 42, after a life of “failure” which included: a divorce, a son hooked on drugs, and a job that barely supported me, He showed me a vision of a vase. The vase was broken and lay scattered in many pieces which He gently picked up and glued every single piece back together. The vase was now more beautiful than it had been before. Sunlight sparkled off the former cracks in the vase, now mended with gold. It was filled with fragrant, beautiful roses. He told me, “You are that vase and you are my Princess. You walk in the courts of the Most High.”

I carried that vision in my heart and noticed that I was starting to hold my head higher. I knew who I was. I knew my identity. One day, I was in Berlin, preaching on the street and someone gave me a pin they had which read, “I am His Princess!” I was so excited! I put the pin on my coat lapel and wore it proudly for several years. One day someone admired it greatly and I heard the Holy Spirit say, “Give it to her.” It was hard to give away as it had been a daily reminder of my calling, but I gave it to her. Years have gone by and now I do not regret that I gave my pin away. That girl needed it, just like I had needed the vision of who I am: cracked and broken but made beautiful by my King.

Every once in awhile, I see proficient people who are “living their dream” and have accomplished things far beyond what they ever thought or imagined. They worked their way out of poverty; against all odds they got a degree; they learned a foreign language; they bought their dream house or their dream car and I see that and think, “What's wrong with me? Why didn't I have those kinds of dreams?” But not for long because I remember, my only real dream in life is to be His princess and that dream has been fulfilled: I AM HIS PRINCESS! Spending time with Him, He has shown me ways to paint pictures; He has helped me to use my voice to worship Him and He has taught me simple chords on the piano. Together, we have written songs that He loves. We do fun things like walk down the street and pray for neighborhoods and people that pass us by. Nobody knows. Nobody sees. But we know and we smile together. Sometimes He blesses me with amazing gifts such as a gourmet dinner out paid for by a friend or an expensive pair of shoes found at the Goodwill. Together we have traveled all around Europe, to Israel and Belarus – far bigger dreams than I ever could have dreamt! I smile. I say inside, “He gives such good gifts to me, His princess.”

And my dream, my desire will never come to an end. It won't burn up when this earth fades away. I will be His princess into eternity.  

Sunday, February 21, 2016


More and more, I find myself bumping into Christians who say things like, “If we show them the power of Jesus, they will get saved!” Or, “If you have enough of the Holy Spirit, people will get saved,” and “If you make Jesus attractive enough, they will believe in Him.”

Will they? Do miracles cause people to fall on their knees in repentance? Does an attractive, loving Jesus cause people to want to become Christian?

These statements may be true in some aspects but are they truth? When I evangelize, my heart's burden is to pour the love of Jesus into the lost. I so desire that they see, feel and understand His love and I think, “If they can only experience His great love for them, then surely they will want Him in their lives,” but is that true?

Where were all the people who were physically healed during the three years of Jesus ministry when He was crucified? Where were they? Why weren't they there, protesting, “No! Don't crucify him!” Where were the people who saw bread and fish multiplied from 5 loaves and 2 fish?  Where were they when they were shouting, “Crucify Him!” Why were there only 120 believers in the upper room waiting for the Holy Spirit to come, when thousands were touched by Jesus?

We (in the church) today, think we are so free but we are STILL talking about methods. We are still putting Jesus into a box.

We've had waves of methods for evangelism. The circuit riders with tent revivals; the anointed men of God such as Spurgeon, Wesley and Billy Graham. We've done friendship evangelism and now we are talking about what I term, “power evangelism” which says if we can do enough miracles, they will be saved.

We are always being told that we are “doing it wrong,” and if someone sees a salvation, they package it and say, “This is the way to do it.”

Bethel Church and Todd White are teaching power evangelism – so the whole Christian world flocks to them and wants to be just like them.

“This way is right. That way is wrong...”

Did we ever stop to think that there is no right way?

What happened to abiding and walking with Jesus and allowing Him to guide us in each and every situation? Will we ever stop flocking to methodology and just look to Jesus and the Counselor, Guide who LIVES INSIDE?

If we are walking close to Jesus, He may have us come alongside someone in friendship evangelism one day and the next day use us on the street to do “power-evangelism.” He may challenge us one day to preach fire, hell and brimstone on the street and the next day, give food to the poor. Our God is a God of diversity and He is never locked inside of a method. He alone knows each individual intimately and He alone knows what will reach each person with His love.

We should be teaching ABIDING, not methodology. If we are all abiding in Jesus, falling in love with Him each day, and getting to know Him more and more, He will be our guide in evangelism.
“When the Spirit of Truth comes, He will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on His own but will tell you what He has heard. He will tell you about the future. He will bring me glory by telling you whatever He receives from Me. All that belongs to the father is mine; this is why I said, 'The Spirit will TELL YOU WHATEVER HE RECIEVES FROM ME.'” John 16:12-15

What glorious words! We don't need prophets to tell us how to evangelise or how to live. We have the glorious counselor and teacher living right inside of us!

I fear that many Christians feel inadequate or not as powerful or spiritual as say, Todd White. I think Todd White is wonderful and I am not rapping him, I am just saying that the Lord works individually with all of us. I am also saying that I wish Christians would stop criticizing other's methods of evangelism. I fear that many criticize methods because they are afraid that a hell and fire street preacher will make all Christians look angry and intolerant. As well, the average Christian wants everyone to have “happy” feelings for God. “This Christian culture of positivity depicts a God who is so enamored by us that judgement is contrary to his nature. John Burton (

Is it true that we can present Jesus as so irresistible that sinners will repent? I don't believe so. Judas Iscariot is a prime example. He lived with Jesus as close as any man could. He saw (and felt) His love, he saw the miracles and he heard the teaching, yet he let sin have the upper hand in his life. Judas did not choose Jesus, he chose sin.

Take the words of Jesus, “You can enter God's Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for THE MANY WHO CHOOSE THAT WAY. But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult and only a few ever find it.” Matthew 7:13-14.

Jesus made it very plain that many more would go to hell than to heaven. Sadly the soul of man is “the most deceitful of all things and desperately wicked. Who really knows how bad it is?” Jeremiah 17:9

In conclusion, let's stop claiming we know the “right” way to evangelize. Even if we don't agree with another's method, let's encourage our brother's and sisters. Which is worse, a brother who sits and watches TV every night or a brother who stands on a corner compelling the lost to escape the fires of hell? If you believe the brother who speaks honestly about hell is worse than the TV watcher, I would suggest you need to “examine yourself to see if your faith is genuine.” 2 Corinthians 13:5. Also, if you are a successful evangelist, please don't assume that your method is the right one or the only way to evangelize. It's okay to teach your method of evangelism but it's not okay to criticize your fellow brother's and sister's.

We need to accept the sad truth that many, many people simply do not want to bow their knee to Jesus and make Him their Lord. It is hard to comprehend for those of us who love Jesus, why all the world does not love Him but they simply don't. Loving Him costs a lot. We have to die to our flesh, we have to accept His payment for our sins and we have to put Jesus on the throne of our lives and many are not willing to give up their throne.