Monday, May 23, 2016

Homosexuality is a Sin!


They traded the truth about God for a lie. So they worshiped and served the things God created instead of the Creator himself, who is worthy of eternal praise! Amen.That is why God abandoned them to their shameful desires. Even the women turned against the natural way to have sex and instead indulged in sex with each other. And the men, instead of having normal sexual relations with women, burned with lust for each other. Men did shameful things with other men, and as a result of this sin, they suffered within themselves the penalty they deserved. Romans 1:25-27

I'm not afraid to say that homosexuality is a sin.

Adultery is sin.
Stealing is sin.
Lying is sin.
Killing is sin.
Worshiping anything other than God is sin.

Definition of sin: Breaking God's laws; snubbing our nose at God and rebelling against Him.

Sin brings bondage. It's pleasures are temporary. God did not create certain desires that give us pleasure and then tell us not to do them. He is not the creator of sin. Satan devised sin as a way to capture, ensnare, and turn us away from the truth and the life and the way to live that brings freedom.

Witchcraft and satanism are alive and well in the Christian churches. Satan's scheme is to twist and distort truth and what better way than to infiltrate the Christian church. He loves to make Christians look like hypocrites; money-grubbing fools; and narrow hate-filled mongers. If satan can distort the true bride of Christ, he gains ground in keeping people away from salvation. Why not plant homosexual's in the church and have them broadcast far and wide, “God did not say you cannot sleep with a member of the same sex. God would not say that. He is a god of love. Go on, eat the apple.”

The true bride of Christ cannot be deceived or manipulated. The true bride of Christ understands holiness. The true bride of Christ loves the law.

Yet sadly, many who call themselves Christians are being deceived and manipulated.

One of the greatest forms of manipulation that is used by our enemy towards Christians is to plant the thought, “You are not showing love.”

Oh how weak we Christians are! Because we don't know we are completely and forever loved by Christ, in our depths of depravity we long to be loved and perceived in a positive light and so we panic. “I'm not showing love! Oh no! What will they think of me? After all, Christ showed love to the woman caught in adultery by not casting a stone.”

I believe that Jesus wrote in the sand the sins of the Pharisee's and exposed THEIR sins. The woman was willing to agree with Jesus that adultery is sin. We know this because Jesus said, “Go your way and SIN NO MORE.” He didn't say, “I know you've been abused and you were just committing adultery because of your past. I understand.” Nor did He say, “Come on Pharisee's, you are sinners too. Let's just love one another and all get along.” No, I believe He PUBLICLY exposed their sins which brought so much humiliation and shame that they had to walk away. It was a brutal thing for Jesus to do and it most likely caused them to hate him all the more for exposing their sin. Sin no more. Sin no more......sin no more.... it reverberates down through time. SIN NO MORE.

Due to satan's lies and our own false sense of guilt, many become bleeding heart's towards the homosexual community with attitudes such as, “Those poor gay people. They've been so hated and persecuted, I better make up for all the Christians in the world who have hated them and show them that at least I love and understand them.”  Of course, we need to love people who practice homosexuality, just as we need to love murderers, liars and adulterers but that doesn't mean that we have to be evasive or pretend that we think their sin is okay.  Love speaks up.  Love tells the truth.

One thing the Lord asks of us is that we agree with Him that sin is sin, yet the homosexual community refuses to do this. Most adulterers agree that adultery is sin; most liar's will say, “Yes, I shouldn't lie,” and thieves, though they may justify their thievery, will agree it is wrong to steal.

Telling a homosexual that their behavior is sin is NOT AN ACT OF HATE. It is an act of love. A love that longs to turn them around from the path that leads to destruction and put them on a path that leads to life.

On the converse, keeping QUIET is a sin. Do you not love enough to tell someone when they are going to fall off a cliff or that their house is on fire and they better get out quick? Love rescues. Love tells the truth. Love risks being hated and slandered. Love risks being misunderstood. Love wants the highest good for a person and not just temporal pleasure and happiness.

So, I shout it from the roof-tops: “YOU ARE BEING LIED TO! HOMOSEXUALTIY IS A SIN, A TRAP, AND A SNARE THAT IS HARD TO BREAK ONCE YOU ENTER!” God's word clearly states that homosexuality is a sin. The words have not been twisted. We all must turn from sin and agree with God that sin is sin. We must hate the things that God hates and love the things that God loves.

Why does God hate sin? Because he knows it will enslave and entrap. It's that simple. He loved us enough to write down FREEDOM on two stone tablets and forever give them to the world. That's what the 10 commandment's are: steps to freedom. Yet satan has twisted the commandments and lied to us and whispered to us in his slimy voice that it is an evil god who would try and tell us what to do and that we can't have happiness if we follow HIS way.

Life isn't a test that says, “Can you avoid sin and come to heaven?” It's not about that. It's about embracing HIM who is life and freedom and love.

Satan is a liar.

Come on Christians. You have been manipulated by the master of all lies. Quit kowtowing to the homosexual agenda! Quit worrying that you will be perceived as a hate-filled monger! If someone is addicted to drugs, do you say to that person, “I'm so glad it makes you feel good. Here's some money to buy more.” NO! You try and rescue them. It is the same with homosexuals. By your keeping quiet, you are keeping them enslaved and trapped into lies. Loving is telling the truth.

Thursday, May 5, 2016


I'm a Princess now!

The difference between the impossible and the possible lies in a person's determination.”  Tommy Lasorda
                                    
If the dream is big enough, the facts don't count.


Live your life.....make your dream come true.” Asimakis



Cherish your visions and your dreams, as they are the children of your soul and the blueprints of your ultimate achievements.”
Napoleon hill


I don't remember anybody telling me those things when I was young. Today, those ideas are common-place and taught widely in the schools, but I don't remember being told to dream big or that I can do whatever I want as long as I believe in myself.

Would I have turned out differently, if someone had told me; if I was allowed to dream beyond being a wife and mother?

The only career-dream I can remember having was wanting to be a social-worker. That was because I read some books about a social worker helping foster children. But no one encouraged me in that dream and today I would not want to be a social-worker. I know that I could not co-labor with a society that believes in relativism. Yet, sometimes when I read quotes on dreams, I wonder why I never had strong aspirations to be a “success.” Do or did I have a weak mind? Did I miss out? Was there more that I could have aspired to?

At the bottom of my heart, when I go deep, I realize that my only aspiration in this life is to be His princess. Period.


That's really all I've ever wanted. And the dream has been fulfilled. I am His Princess! Day in and Day out, 24-7, forever and eternity.

I met the King when I was very young. I remember whispering to Him in my bed at night, telling Him, “I am yours.” When I was 9 I made a public declaration and was immersed in water at my church. At 13, I made another public declaration and soon after was filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke in tongues. But I didn't know I was or had become His princess until later in life.

At 42, after a life of “failure” which included: a divorce, a son hooked on drugs, and a job that barely supported me, He showed me a vision of a vase. The vase was broken and lay scattered in many pieces which He gently picked up and glued every single piece back together. The vase was now more beautiful than it had been before. Sunlight sparkled off the former cracks in the vase, now mended with gold. It was filled with fragrant, beautiful roses. He told me, “You are that vase and you are my Princess. You walk in the courts of the Most High.”



I carried that vision in my heart and noticed that I was starting to hold my head higher. I knew who I was. I knew my identity. One day, I was in Berlin, preaching on the street and someone gave me a pin they had which read, “I am His Princess!” I was so excited! I put the pin on my coat lapel and wore it proudly for several years. One day someone admired it greatly and I heard the Holy Spirit say, “Give it to her.” It was hard to give away as it had been a daily reminder of my calling, but I gave it to her. Years have gone by and now I do not regret that I gave my pin away. That girl needed it, just like I had needed the vision of who I am: cracked and broken but made beautiful by my King.



Every once in awhile, I see proficient people who are “living their dream” and have accomplished things far beyond what they ever thought or imagined. They worked their way out of poverty; against all odds they got a degree; they learned a foreign language; they bought their dream house or their dream car and I see that and think, “What's wrong with me? Why didn't I have those kinds of dreams?” But not for long because I remember, my only real dream in life is to be His princess and that dream has been fulfilled: I AM HIS PRINCESS! Spending time with Him, He has shown me ways to paint pictures; He has helped me to use my voice to worship Him and He has taught me simple chords on the piano. Together, we have written songs that He loves. We do fun things like walk down the street and pray for neighborhoods and people that pass us by. Nobody knows. Nobody sees. But we know and we smile together. Sometimes He blesses me with amazing gifts such as a gourmet dinner out paid for by a friend or an expensive pair of shoes found at the Goodwill. Together we have traveled all around Europe, to Israel and Belarus – far bigger dreams than I ever could have dreamt! I smile. I say inside, “He gives such good gifts to me, His princess.”

And my dream, my desire will never come to an end. It won't burn up when this earth fades away. I will be His princess into eternity.  



Sunday, February 21, 2016

WE ACT FREE BUT CONTINUALLY FALL INTO METHODOLOGY

More and more, I find myself bumping into Christians who say things like, “If we show them the power of Jesus, they will get saved!” Or, “If you have enough of the Holy Spirit, people will get saved,” and “If you make Jesus attractive enough, they will believe in Him.”

Will they? Do miracles cause people to fall on their knees in repentance? Does an attractive, loving Jesus cause people to want to become Christian?



These statements may be true in some aspects but are they truth? When I evangelize, my heart's burden is to pour the love of Jesus into the lost. I so desire that they see, feel and understand His love and I think, “If they can only experience His great love for them, then surely they will want Him in their lives,” but is that true?

Where were all the people who were physically healed during the three years of Jesus ministry when He was crucified? Where were they? Why weren't they there, protesting, “No! Don't crucify him!” Where were the people who saw bread and fish multiplied from 5 loaves and 2 fish?  Where were they when they were shouting, “Crucify Him!” Why were there only 120 believers in the upper room waiting for the Holy Spirit to come, when thousands were touched by Jesus?

We (in the church) today, think we are so free but we are STILL talking about methods. We are still putting Jesus into a box.

We've had waves of methods for evangelism. The circuit riders with tent revivals; the anointed men of God such as Spurgeon, Wesley and Billy Graham. We've done friendship evangelism and now we are talking about what I term, “power evangelism” which says if we can do enough miracles, they will be saved.



We are always being told that we are “doing it wrong,” and if someone sees a salvation, they package it and say, “This is the way to do it.”

Bethel Church and Todd White are teaching power evangelism – so the whole Christian world flocks to them and wants to be just like them.

“This way is right. That way is wrong...”

Did we ever stop to think that there is no right way?

What happened to abiding and walking with Jesus and allowing Him to guide us in each and every situation? Will we ever stop flocking to methodology and just look to Jesus and the Counselor, Guide who LIVES INSIDE?

If we are walking close to Jesus, He may have us come alongside someone in friendship evangelism one day and the next day use us on the street to do “power-evangelism.” He may challenge us one day to preach fire, hell and brimstone on the street and the next day, give food to the poor. Our God is a God of diversity and He is never locked inside of a method. He alone knows each individual intimately and He alone knows what will reach each person with His love.



We should be teaching ABIDING, not methodology. If we are all abiding in Jesus, falling in love with Him each day, and getting to know Him more and more, He will be our guide in evangelism.
“When the Spirit of Truth comes, He will guide you into all truth. He will not speak on His own but will tell you what He has heard. He will tell you about the future. He will bring me glory by telling you whatever He receives from Me. All that belongs to the father is mine; this is why I said, 'The Spirit will TELL YOU WHATEVER HE RECIEVES FROM ME.'” John 16:12-15

What glorious words! We don't need prophets to tell us how to evangelise or how to live. We have the glorious counselor and teacher living right inside of us!

I fear that many Christians feel inadequate or not as powerful or spiritual as say, Todd White. I think Todd White is wonderful and I am not rapping him, I am just saying that the Lord works individually with all of us. I am also saying that I wish Christians would stop criticizing other's methods of evangelism. I fear that many criticize methods because they are afraid that a hell and fire street preacher will make all Christians look angry and intolerant. As well, the average Christian wants everyone to have “happy” feelings for God. “This Christian culture of positivity depicts a God who is so enamored by us that judgement is contrary to his nature. John Burton (http://www.charismanews.com/opinion/50630-is-it-time-for-hell-fire-preaching-again)

Is it true that we can present Jesus as so irresistible that sinners will repent? I don't believe so. Judas Iscariot is a prime example. He lived with Jesus as close as any man could. He saw (and felt) His love, he saw the miracles and he heard the teaching, yet he let sin have the upper hand in his life. Judas did not choose Jesus, he chose sin.

Take the words of Jesus, “You can enter God's Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for THE MANY WHO CHOOSE THAT WAY. But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult and only a few ever find it.” Matthew 7:13-14.

Jesus made it very plain that many more would go to hell than to heaven. Sadly the soul of man is “the most deceitful of all things and desperately wicked. Who really knows how bad it is?” Jeremiah 17:9

In conclusion, let's stop claiming we know the “right” way to evangelize. Even if we don't agree with another's method, let's encourage our brother's and sisters. Which is worse, a brother who sits and watches TV every night or a brother who stands on a corner compelling the lost to escape the fires of hell? If you believe the brother who speaks honestly about hell is worse than the TV watcher, I would suggest you need to “examine yourself to see if your faith is genuine.” 2 Corinthians 13:5. Also, if you are a successful evangelist, please don't assume that your method is the right one or the only way to evangelize. It's okay to teach your method of evangelism but it's not okay to criticize your fellow brother's and sister's.




We need to accept the sad truth that many, many people simply do not want to bow their knee to Jesus and make Him their Lord. It is hard to comprehend for those of us who love Jesus, why all the world does not love Him but they simply don't. Loving Him costs a lot. We have to die to our flesh, we have to accept His payment for our sins and we have to put Jesus on the throne of our lives and many are not willing to give up their throne.

Saturday, February 6, 2016

Obsessed with beauty


       Honor and majesty surround him; strength and BEAUTY fill his sanctuary. Psalm 96:6 

     I was worshipping Jesus and felt such a strong sense of His beauty. He is beautiful! He is magnificent and then these thoughts came to me......

     I was thinking about how we women care so much about how we look. We so desire to be beautiful creatures. I had observed a 40 year old woman who every time she passed by a mirror, or even a store-front window shop where she could catch her reflection, would turn her head to look at herself. I happened to be walking behind her when I saw her look into the store-front shop. At first, I thought she was looking into the store but then I realized she was gazing at herself, so much so that as she was walking on, she turned her head to look back and kept looking. It made me wonder, "What is she thinking? Is she wondering if she is pretty enough?"  After this, I noticed for the first time that her hair is died jet black.  She keeps her figure slim and dresses very stylish. I also noticed that men were giving her attention.

     I'm the same way. I so want to look good all the time. I make sure the best pictures of myself are posted on Face Book and I constantly wish that I was skinny.  I think it is healthy to care how you look and we should all try to be the best that we can be but it is not healthy to obsess with how we look. Our worth should not come from our looks. We should not depend on a man's compliments to keep us secure and happy.

     Then I began thinking that although women can be obsessed with looking good for others, men can be just as obsessed with looking at beautiful women! Men love to look at pretty women and I guess it's nice that they appreciate beautiful women. The problem is when it turns from appreciation to obsession or lust.

    Anyway, I was pondering on all of this when I realized that we should only be gazing at the beauty of Jesus. Women worrying about their looks are only thinking of THEMSELVES. Men, looking around for beautiful women are also only thinking of THEMSELVES. If both men and women stopped worrying about physical beauty and instead searched for the beauty in Jesus - would, I think, make us all happier.

      "One thing I have asked from the Lord, that I shall seek: That I may dwell in the house of the Lord, all the days of my life, to behold the BEAUTY of the Lord." Psalm 27:4 

     David understood this. And he had plenty of beautiful women to gaze at, so the fact that he desired only to be in the temple of the Lord and gaze at HIS beauty shows that HIS beauty is way more wonderful and fulfilling than a women's beauty. The 24 creatures spoken of in Revelations do nothing but fall down before HIM and sing, "Holy, holy, holy are YOU." I believe that even His attributes look beautiful. Holiness looks like beauty; His goodness looks like beauty; and His loves shines out in beautiful streams. The 24 creatures are so overwhelmed, that they throw their crowns down before His beauty.

     So, to the women I say,  the next time you are in a worship service and you are tempted to worry if your eye-liner is running or lament the fact that you forgot to put your lipstick on, just forget all that! Start looking heavenward and really worship the Lord. You will gain a glimpse of His beauty and His beauty will fall on you and make you more beautiful than you ever thought possible.

 Charm is deceptive and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised. Proverbs 31:30 

     And you men, who are tempted to let your eyes wander the room so you can find the most beautiful girl in the room, know that there is a beauty beaming down on you and desiring your gaze. The King's beauty will so overwhelm you that you will thirst for nothing more than for one more glimpse of His face!

 Your eyes will see the King, in all His beauty. Isaiah 33:17a

 Honor and majesty surround him; strength and beauty fill his sanctuary. Psalm 96:6 

     He is truly beautiful. I have seen His smile, spread across His face so big and bright that I realized He has no worries! He is in constant joy. I have seen Him swirl and dance around the room during worship. His dance brings freedom and gladness. I have gazed upon His feet, still wearing the scars and imagining the great drops of blood and sweat falling upon them. They are the most beautiful feet and the reek of perfume still wafts off of them from the women who anointed those feel with perfume and her hair. I have felt His joy overwhelm my soul and found myself singing, "Beautiful, beautiful, He is only beautiful."


Saturday, May 23, 2015

Beguiling BELARUS - my impressions of the country and her people

    

    When I am in Belarus, I feel like I am in a far away land, even though it is only about a 12 hour drive from Berlin. Maybe it is just the thought that the country is run by a dictator, of whom we are told, has amassed a personal fortune at the expense of the people he governs. We have heard that spies are everywhere and apartments are bugged. However, even though unemployment and poverty are high, the people seem to be generally satisfied with life.
    The President has an 11 year old son, alleged to be birthed by his personal doctor and who goes with him wherever he goes. It seems he is already grooming his spoiled son to take control of the country when he comes of age. From reports, it sounds like he already has complete control of his dad. His son carries his own golden pistol and has been given medals that soldiers took years to achieve.
    Once we were driving in the downtown area and traffic came to a stop. Our host said, “It is probably because of the president.” Sure enough, on the other side of the now cleared highway, came black car after black car with flags – then a big Hummer-type car – some fancy cars and then more black cars following – to disguise which car the President was actually in. We were told this is a common occurrence in Belarus.
    It is rare to see old buildings in Belarus like you see in Europe. Most of the country was completely destroyed in WW2. What you see are communist looking high-rise buildings and Russian art and huge statues of Stalin or war hero's. 



     We were a bit surprised to also see McDonalds and KFC. We had thought the communist leanings were still prevalent but we saw that capitalism is also flourishing to some degree. We heard that it is almost impossible to become rich in Belarus due to the weak market and constant inflation.



    I have been in Belarus twice on “Victory Day” held every May 9th. The city celebrate's their victory over Hitler by covering the downtown streets with flags and banners. Their war arsenal: tanks, jeeps and guns are brought out and paraded down the street along with women in traditional costume and young military men and women proudly displaying their military uniforms and badges. The President gives a speech and everyone looks happy and gay.

Victory Day Parade - 2014

    Starting in 2014, the Christians were allowed for the first time in twelve years, to operate a stage in the park with Christian musicians. They still had to be careful to not be too “preachy” but it was quite the break-through that they were even given permission. It may have been because May 2014 was when the world ice-hockey competitions were held in Minsk and the President wanted to show the world that there is religious freedom in Belarus. However, the Christians were allowed, once again, in 2015 to use the stage for Christian music.
Thilo singing on stage in the park
    The countryside in Belarus is very green and we saw a lot of beautiful lakes. In my opinion, the most charming thing about Belarus is the Dachas, which are small summer-cabins that many Belarusians own and travel to on weekends and in summer. When I first saw them, I thought their cute colors and fences were unique to the village I was in, but I learned that the Dacha's in every village in Belarus look very much the same. Many villages have no running water and the dacha owners draw their water from a well that several families use. 


    The Dacha's are often painted in bright blues, greens and pinks and have the cutest picket fences that are also painted. The women work hard in the gardens while the men seem to occupy their time with building projects or chopping wood for Banja (sauna).




    There is a saying in Belarus that everyone is a millionaire. That's because inflation is so high. A million Belarusian rubbles is comparable to around 70. dollars. One day in a park, we came upon a fountain where instead of coins being tossed in, there were paper bills floating in the water. It is a funny experience to go to the grocery store and take out a wad of bills that seem as thick as your arm and watch the cashier count them. Everyone is patient.

Money floating in fountain

This is about 2 euros!
    We were privileged to be the guests in a home that was recently finished enough for guests. It was announced that we were the very first guests to stay in their house! It was a beautiful, huge house. Even by American standards, it was big and we rarely saw an average-sized home in the outlying neighborhoods which surround the city of Minsk.
We learned that due to the bad economy, you cannot get loans to build houses, therefore, you pay as you go, so the average home takes over twelve years to build. You have to wait until you have cash on hand. It takes a long time and is a lot of hard work, however, once the house is built, it is yours, free and clear.


Typical Sight:  House in progress


    The houses are very similar to American houses except that they are built from concrete blocks instead of wood. The home we stayed in had beautiful tiled and wood flooring; spacious bathrooms, and modern kitchen.
However, your average Belarusian lives in the city in an apartment. We heard that it is very hard to obtain an apartment so most kids live with their parents until they get married or stay with their family forever and eventually inherit the apartment.
    Our host family was extremely musical and artistically talented. The eldest son is a drummer and sound-engineer who has produced albums. The second son is an accomplished pianist, conductor, composer and worship leader. One day I was resting on my bed and suddenly heard the most beautiful strains of Bach flowing from the piano in their dining room. I had to stop what I was doing to listen. The flowing, pounding music brought chills. It only lasted about 20 minutes and I was hoping to hear more. Later, I learned that this was a common occurrence of that son. He would arrive home and immediately sit down at the piano and play wildly for 10 or 15 minutes, even if he arrived home at 11pm. No one ever said a word. I loved it.


    The youngest child is an artist and you could see her art everywhere. She painted a huge melon on the wall in the basement kitchen (which was a kitchen for guests or party use) but the most impressive art was on the wall in her bedroom where she had painstakingly done swirls and designs with a black pen. You would have to see it, to recognise how brilliant it is. She is also most accomplished in faces and we were blown away by the poignancy and creativity of her art.
    The parents are also amazing musicians, leaders, visionaries, pastors and hard-workers. They travel to the United States more often that we do! They have relatives living in Minnesota. Almost everyone we met had relatives somewhere in the United States. Most of the Belarusian's I met were proud to be Belarusian's and wanted to stay in their own country to make it a better place. No one seemed concerned about Russia's influence or loosing personal freedoms although every Christian is aware that not too long ago their Christian grandparents were imprisoned for their faith. Our host's father was an alcoholic who was sent to prison and there he met Jesus, through a fellow prisoner - a pastor imprisoned for his faith. Our host's father, came out of that prison a changed man and lived the remainder of his life sober and helping to advance the kingdom of Jesus.
    Here are some cultural things that I found interesting. You do not flush toilet paper down the toilet! That was a very hard one for us to deal with and remember. Over and over, we would say, “Oh, I forgot!” There are small garbage cans next to each toilet and these are emptied almost every day . I looked on-line to find the reasons for not flushing toilet paper down the toilet and found varied reasons. Some said that the toilet paper in some countries does not dissolve well. Some said the pipes are laid funny and therefore clog up easily. Some said, that it is simply culture and habit and that they no longer need to do so, but still do. I wondered if this was true for the home we were staying in as it was brand new built and you would think that modern plumbing could handle toilet paper. However, the toilet in the basement did clog up several times. I talked to one Belarusian about this and she said that in some homes, you can flush the toilet paper down the toilet and that you have to look and see if there is a garbage-can next to the toilet and if there is, always use it!
    I enjoyed the cultural habit of serving soup before every meal. It was always a hot soup and usually with a chicken broth, potatoes, carrots and a grain. It was always tasty. Belarusian's are known for serving many items at the dinner table. Their hot meal is in the afternoon, just like Europeans. For them, it is a culture shock to see only meat, potatoes and a vegetable on a table as opposed to meat, potatoes, two different salads, a hot vegetable, as well as small plates of cucumbers, tomatoes and cheese. 


    They make delicious cakes, one of which is layered with honey. I loved the fresh salads and they do beet salads very well. My favorite Belarusian food is Shashlik (or Kabab) which is grilled, lamb, pork or beef on skewers. Shashlik was a common street food on the streets of St. Petersburg, Russia in the 1920's. It is traditionally marinated overnight in a vinegar mixture and cooked the next day over a fire grill. Mmmm, it is so delicious!

Shashlik on grill

They also drink lots of juice made from fresh berries and water.
The most famous Belarusian food is Draniki, (potato pancakes). They are delicious and are served with sour cream which was some of the best sour cream I've ever 
had. Their milk is particularly good as well.

Home-made juice

    One cultural difference that I could not get used to was the male dominance. The women tend to be more feminine than women from Western countries and wear lots of make-up, high heels and short skirts while the men are MEN! When a man enters a room with men and women, he will only shake the men's hands and either completely ignore the women or give them a slight not. At first, I took it personal. As I was usually the oldest person in the room, I thought, “Well, I guess I'm just not cool enough for them,” and then I started observing that it happened to all the women. The men had no problem shaking my hand, if I held it out first. I don't believe the women in Belarus feel that they are being demeaned, it is just their way. I did feel demeaned. There was just something in the air and often I felt as if I was not “listened” to. We were at a party and the men spoke to the men and the women were silent. Of course, that might have been unique to our particular situation but overall, you can “feel” that it is a male-dominated society.
    Most of our time was spent in the countries capital, Minsk but our last weekend we were privileged to travel to a small village about 2 hours from the border town of Brest. There we stayed in a 2-bedroom, 1 bath house with a wonderful, loving Christian family. They raised 6 children in that small flat. The toilet was just a small room only big enough to stand in. Next to the toilet was another small room barely big enough for a bathtub/shower, sink and washing machine.
    We were welcomed into their home like royalty. They fed us the most amazing, wonderful food and as we ate, they hovered over us, making sure we had all we needed. I had tears in my eyes because through these simple people, I felt the love of our heavenly Father.
    We had to have an interpreter to speak as the family spoke no english. They had a friend, an English teacher, who offered her services. The mother of the house told us that her husband, “Is a saint! People just don't know.” She told us that they arrived in their village 20 years ago and they were the ONLY Christians in the whole village. The people had never met a Christian. Her husband, who is an accomplished musician on the violin and accordion, started performing on the street and evangelising. Soon, some became Christians and they started a church in their home. Today that church is some 200 people with about 50 teens in their youth group. Through help from the United States, they have built a wonderful building to hold services with an outdoor pool for baptisms. The Lord also blessed the church so they could buy property in the country, (not far from their homes – maybe a 20 minute drive). With the property came an abandoned school house that sits on about 20 acres and is near a lake with a sandy shore. Every summer, they hold kids camps on the property. They are slowly, slowly refurbishing the old school building and plan to turn it into a drug/alcohol rehabilitation center.
Alcoholism is a huge problem in Belarus. We asked a young Christian guy if he ever drinks alcohol and his answer was, “Of course not. Alcoholism is a huge problem and it is in our blood. If we drink, we may easily become alcoholics.” When we ministered prayer in the church of that village, person after person was asking prayer for either their husband or son who was lost on alcohol. It was very heart-breaking.
    I feel so blessed that I got to meet those loving Belarusians who care and are giving their lives for their fellow-men to show them a better way and willing to give all to bring others to Jesus.



    The hearts of the people will call us back to Belarus far more than the wonderful food, fun Dachas and beautiful countryside. The people are loving, warm-hearted and so creative. I don't know when I've been around a group of more creative people. They welcomed us into their homes and hearts and we will never forget them.

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Should evil father's be respected and other thoughts spurred from reading a book on children of Nazi regime.

I just finished reading a fascinating book entitled, My Father's Keeper by Stephan Lebert. The author's father was a journalist and in 1959 he  interviewed sons and daughter's of high-level Nazis - right hand men of Hitler and published those interviews as a series in a German magazine. Those interviews took place 15 years after the end of WWII.  His son (author of the book I read) did not read those interviews until after his father's death in 1993. When he found and read the old manuscript, he came up with the idea to interview the same children, now in the late season of their lives.  Remarkably, he was able to find and interview six of the same people his father had interviewed, and so came about his book, “My Father's Keeper.”

I found the book fascinating on so many levels. First, I was shocked to learn that out of the six interviews, only two of the adult children believe that what their father's did was wrong (almost all of them engineering mass-murder) and four of them believe in the same principles their father's held and are proud of who their father's were.  Call me naive or idealistic, but I just assumed that with all the truth that came out about the death camps, the hatred and torture, that anyone, even the sons and daughters of the mass murderers would surely see the evil that was so willfully done. The book opened my eyes to the startling, horrifying truth that the evil Nazi's of that time, merely went underground. How many of them successfully passed their evil ideas to their children and grandchildren? It makes me shudder to think of it.



Niklas Frank's father was general governor of Poland during Hitler's regime and responsible for “cleansing” Poland and creating means for mass murder. It was nothing for his father to inform Hitler that on any given day he had exterminated 150,000 Jews.  Niklas was the youngest of five children when his father was hung for his war crimes and only about 5 or 6 years old. As an adult, he became a journalist and wrote a series of articles about his father and his hatred for him. The articles were graphic, spewing out his hatred.  What shocked me was that the general public thought the idea of expressing hate towards ones father, even a war-criminal was wrong. Letters poured into the editor of the newspaper, that Niklas should at least respect his dad. Respect? Respect? What was there to respect? I was (and am) appalled. Partly because I still see this same line of thinking today, in 2015. I've seen children born to criminal drug-addicts and the mother will say, “My son needs to know his father and spend time with him, after all he IS the father.” So what! I believe a father needs to earn respect and if he is evil or selfish, let the child find a role-model who he can look up to. It baffles me, the way people think. The book states that Niklas had to almost go into hiding due to the reaction of people. They should have been applauding him! “Wow! Amazing that you can see the truth about your father.”

The other thing that fascinated me in the book was the idea that after the war, a whole country basically went into denial. They almost had to do this for survival sake. Imagine, asking your neighbor, “What did you do before the war?”

“Well, I was a leading Nazi.”

No one was going to admit to this, so the “don't ask – don't tell” unspoken code came into effect. It would have been embarrassing to find out and to admit as well. “Let's all pretend, we were against Hitler's socialism, let's all pretend we knew nothing about the Jews.” It was most likely the only way to survive. But what are the results of massive denial? What are the results of not being able to dialogue about politics gone wrong or your despair at loosing a war? The book quotes a psychologist who says that repression brings about anxiety and an unwillingness to change.



I arrived in Berlin the first time in 2000 when my daughter was reaching out to teen-agers in the former communistic east and it was a distressing city. There were dour faces everywhere; a feeling of darkness; gray buildings; and a general lack of color. People even wore dark clothing, from the oldest to the youngest. The silence was acute on public transportation. I returned to Berlin to live in 2008 and although color had appeared: many of the gray buildings were now painted light colors and gone was a lot of the black clothing but the sadness remained, even to this time in 2015. There is more lightness on the trains and people speak more but if you are a newcomer to the city, you still notice that people don't talk much and you can see a marked contrast from other cities.  I see sadness and anxiety on faces and there is still a sense of deep suspicion and mistrust. I've had it happen, several times, that if someone accidentally drops something and you pick it up for them, they look at you as if you are crazy and how dare you help. On the converse, if you accidentally drop something yourself, there is a hesitation to help. A whole crowd of people can ignore you and walk by, leaving you feeling very alone in a cold world.  I believe the unwillingness to help stems from major distrust.

It is all so sad. First Nazism and then Communism and more repression. Countless east Germans loved communism and were sad when the Berlin wall fell down. If they admit that, they are accused of being crazy and if they wanted the wall to come down, they are looked upon as traitors. Many embraced atheism and today they are going after Hinduism and New Age religions but the ones who come to the truth and accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior, are set free. I have seen joy come into their hearts and peace to their anxiety. It has been a long, slow and hard process. Many missionaries have laboured for 20 years and more in Berlin without seeing hardly any converts. Yet, none of their labor has been in vain. After so many years of repression, the healing will not happen over night but I do see change and I see it coming more and more.

Monday, January 12, 2015

Regret


If you aren't in the moment, you are either looking forward to uncertainty or back to pain and regret.
Jim Carrey

Regret is not a proactive feeling. It is situated in disappointment, sorrow, even remorse. It merely wishes things were different without an act to cause a difference. However, repentance is different. Repentance is an admission of, hatred of, and turning away from sin before God.

Sometimes regret comes tumbling down over my head, completely unbidden.  It tortures me.  I did and said such stupid things as a parent or I just did nothing when I should have done so much more.  Was I wrong to sell my home and give everything away?  Did I ever have any wisdom?  Those kinds of things can haunt me and so much more.
Today I was sitting on a beach in Spain, reading my bible, talking to Jesus and it hit me......Yahweh has NO REGRETS!  (Except for maybe that he created us??  Genesis 6:6).  He was grieved and hurt that man did not enjoy or love Him but now that He has a BRIDE  He can call His own, I know that His only regret is sadness for the people who do not want Him.  Yahweh relates to every emotion that we have, so it just hit me that He can even relate to my feelings of regret.  But beyond, that initial pain, I do not believe that Yahweh has regret because He is perfect.  He makes perfect decisions and as His every motive is rooted in LOVE, He has no regret.

I realized, that if Kim is dead and her life is hidden in Jesus, then she lives through Yahweh and she too can walk victoriously, without regret.  Philippians 3:8-14 comes to mind.  "Yes, everything is worthless (ALL MY REGRETS) when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.  For his sake, I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ and become one with him". (vs.8) -  "I want to know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised him from the dead.  I want to suffer with him, sharing in his death, so that one way or another I will experience the resurrection from the dead." (vs.10) 

I don't want to think about ME, my junk, my past, I just want to focus on JESUS, right here, right now and commune with him, even if it be in suffering.

"I don't mean to say that I have already achieved these things, (for sure NO!) or that I have already reached perfection.  But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me.  No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing:  FORGETTING THE PAST AND LOOKING FORWARD TO WHAT LIES AHEAD, (that's the key!) I PRESS ON TO REACH THE END OF THE RACE AND RECEIVE THE HEAVENLY PRIZE FOR WHICH GOD, THROUGH JESUS IS CALLING US. (vs.12-14).

My life....DEAD.....hidden in Jesus....looking forward.  I'm so glad that He can handle all my mistakes and failures.  I'm so glad he can take a rotten lump of clay and mold it into something beautiful.  I'm so thankful that He personifies patience towards me.
Looking ahead, looking to HIM.

“Never look back unless you are planning to go that way.” 
― Henry David Thoreau

“We all do things we desperately wish we could undo. Those regrets just become part of who we are, along with everything else. To spend time trying to change that, well, it's like chasing clouds.” 
― Libba Bray